最新消息显示在全站导航条下方,非常给力的推广位置

追念表姐

望断南飞雁 昌达空间 1144℃ 0评论

  牛年那年九月,北风把地里的秸秆吹得沙沙作声,仰望天空,天还是那个天,只是显得愈加高远。我慌不择路,匆匆穿过坎坷的农田,向上沟奔去。当我来到表姐家的时侯,吵声和哭声交织在一起,表姐蒙盖着一条红色的绸缎被,静静地躺在她那一间瓦房屋的土地上,好像沉睡未醒。头前点两支白色蜡烛,流着泪告诉大家,她已经草草地结束了她那短暂的一生!地上蜷缩一位身材魁梧的男人,他头发蓬松,鼻涕和泪水抹满整个脸庞,早已失去往日男子汉的风采。
  表姐大名李清环,生于一九五八年腊月二十九,是大姑的小女儿。表姐命苦,哇哇坠地那时起,恰好赶上三年大饥饿,父亲是实诚的农村党员,只知道辛勤苦干,省衣节食。长兄稳健刚毅,多才多艺,是兄妹们的精神支柱。他为了创造出一番属于自己的新天地,1969年12月10日弃学从戎,远赴四川。哥哥从军保边疆,父亲身体不好,下面还有四个不懂事的弟弟,生活负担就落在了大姐淑清(大妮)和自己的肩上。表姐懂事、勤恳,是出了名的好姑娘,知道父母艰难,日子苦,不挑吃不挑穿,毅然辍学,无怨无悔,巴望有朝一日,大哥功成名就,作为妹妹也就满足了。
  七十年代末期,我搬回河南老家。父亲第一次带着我去看望姑姑,姑姑一家人非常亲热。那天中午,姑姑亲手给我烙油馍,炒萝卜丝。表姐更是善良贤淑,拉住我的手问这问那,一会儿帮我刮指甲,一会儿又忙着给我补衣服,在我的心灵里充满了幸福和温暖。那个年代,经济条件很差,一到星期天就惦记着去姑姑家,那里有表姐的亲切,那里有油馍的软香,总想能够好运来临,再吃上一回那软香起层的油馍。可是,姑姑家人口多,条件差,再也没有吃过姑姑亲手烙的油馍。姑姑家每一顿饭都没有炒过菜,早上和晚上都是玉米糁煮红薯干,稀得能照见人影,只有中午一顿是面条,里面还参有玉米糁和红薯叶。姑姑一家虽然困难,却没有嫌弃过我。
  有人说:人是衣裳马是鞍。然而,表姐从没有穿过一件像样的衣服,但她相貌端庄,身材合中,鸭蛋脸型,全身总是洋溢着纯真和青春的风采。衣裳破旧,但整洁,看上去依然是那么美丽。留给我印象最深的是她那笑盈盈的脸庞,蕴含着无尽的善良,还有那会笑的大眼睛,似乎从末有过烦恼。表姐最喜欢我,每当看见我就笑着揽住我的脖子,像是在关切自己的亲弟弟。同时,我也在她那里得到了亲姐姐的温暖。
  记得一九七九年春的一个礼拜天,表姐特意到马村,谎称带我进城去玩,我非常兴奋,陪她来到城南望城岗村的一户人家里。那家主人非常热情,给我们每人做一碗鸡蛋荷泡茶,表姐只吃了两个,就推辞不饿把碗放在了桌上,但她一个劲让我吃,生怕我没有吃饱。我不爱吃荷泡鸡蛋,坚持吃了三个就不吃了,那家的女主人一个劲的劝说,我怯生地坐在表姐身旁,红着脸低着头,感觉很不好意思没有把鸡蛋吃完。
  不一会儿,从外面进屋一个很帅气的小伙子,和表姐简单客套几句,就出去了。那年我十三岁,还是个模糊的小孩,不注意两人都说些什么。半个小时之后,我跟着表姐出了那家的大门。
  路上,表姐拉着我的手,脸色红晕,低头微笑着问我:“你说他家好吗?”
  我亲身体会那家人很热情地招待了我们,不假思索地对表姐说:“嗯哪,好!”
  表姐对我的回答好像不是很满意,继续说:“后来我和他说话的那个人,咋样?”
  “嗯….嗯,也很好啊!”
  “如果以后姐姐来这了,你来玩不?”表姐笑得非常好看,像一朵盛开的花。
  “你来这?”我有些不解,赶紧又说“来玩!”
  “你来玩,姐就给你做好吃的!”表姐显得十分惬意,眼睛也笑了起来。
  直到后来,才知道表姐那天是去相亲。可是,他们为什么没有成亲,这也许永远是个谜。
  五年前,经我的堂姐介绍,表姐嫁给了同村并不富裕的王**。王**身材魁梧,城府很深。表姐美丽端庄,通情达理,婚后夫妻俩感情一直不错。怎奈老天无眼,婚后二年,表姐一直未孕。受到传统观念的影响,夫妻感情逐渐产生了微妙的变化。
  9月中旬,表姐已经出现轻生的念头,曾问邻居:“如果一个人想死,吃什么药死得快,并且痛苦最小,或者,上吊如何?”遗憾的是,这些话并没有引起丈夫的注意。
  22日晚饭之后,又一次冷战,丈夫夺门而去。表姐性格刚烈,没有生育,羞愧难当。独自茫然倚靠在床头,环顾四壁,形同木雕,想想婆家的冷眼,半年来丈夫的冷落,归根结底,千错万错都是自己的错,一肚子苦水向谁去倾诉?!对大哥去说?一个月前曾对哥哥倾诉内心的苦衷,可是,哥哥是国家干部,义理分明,反而训了我一顿;回家对父母说?不能再给二老增添麻烦……谁能理解我,谁能帮帮我?!美满的家庭被阵阵如刃的秋风无情地撕破,爱情没有了,温謦演变为刺骨的寒凉,自己没有必要再生存下去……绝望之际,表姐带着满腹的委屈吞下了几十片敌百虫,安静地躺在了床上,等待死亡的降临。
  晚上8点多,丈夫回家看到地上丢弃的药瓶,瞥一眼床上深睡的表姐,误认为表姐是在使性。冷冷地站了片刻,转身走出家门,玩牌一直到凌晨2点。回家看到表姐时,已经奄奄一息。由于上沟村距离县城6公里之遥,数人轮换担架,到县城已经将近凌晨4点。可惜,已经晚了,她就这样地走了…….
  院子里的大树上不时地飘落几片枯黄的树叶,盘旋在空中,本不寒冷的秋风让人觉得寒冷,围观的人越聚越多,每个人的脸上都紧绷绷的……
  约莫过了一个多小时,表哥好像从一辆吉普车上下来,匆匆走进院子当中,目睹亲妹妹不明不白的死去,痛不欲生。
  那年表哥33岁,刚刚从部队转业到地方工作,在亲属众人之中威望很高。表哥非常理智,决定“忍辱节哀,宽大为怀,速办后事”的思想。至此,表姐的人生就算画上了一个不为圆满的句号!
  追念表姐,翻开命书,查看她的生辰六字,平地木命。死于天克地冲的乙丑年,难道天克地冲就会死人吗?可惜,现在已经没有人知道她的出生时辰了。

姓名:李清环(小妮)
性别:女
出生地:河南省鲁山县李村
出生公历:1959年2月6日,星期五
出生农历:一九五八年 十二月 廿九日
命宫:己巳  

八字:己亥 丙寅 己未 ?

大运:戊辰(10岁)

流年:乙丑

1.jpg

转载请注明:贞吉网 » 追念表姐

喜欢 (0)

您必须 登录 才能发表评论!

(27)个小伙伴在吐槽
  1. Why visitors still use to read news papers when in this technological globe the whole thing is presented on net? 0mniartist asmr
    匿名2021-04-12 04:54
  2. I'm curious to find out what blog system you're using? I'm experiencing some minor security issues with my latest blog and I would like to find something more safeguarded. Do you have any solutions? asmr (tinyurl.com) 0mniartist
    匿名2021-04-15 11:39
  3. Wow, this article is pleasant, my younger sister is analyzing such things, therefore I am going to tell her. asmr (tinyurl.com) 0mniartist
    匿名2021-04-16 13:17
  4. What's up, the whole thing is going fine here and ofcourse every one is sharing facts, that's genuinely excellent, keep up writing. Feel free to visit my blog there gamefly
    匿名2021-04-28 07:16
  5. Hi there just wanted to give you a quick heads up. The words in your article seem to be running off the screen in Chrome. I'm not sure if this is a format issue or something to do with web browser compatibility but I thought I'd post to let you know. The design look great though! Hope you get the problem resolved soon. Kudos Take a look at my blog post - it asmr
    匿名2021-04-29 05:55
  6. Spot on with this write-up, I actually believe this website needs far more attention. I'll probably be returning to read more, thanks for the information! Also visit my homepage - asmr off
    匿名2021-04-29 10:48
  7. What's up to every one, the contents present at this site are really remarkable for people knowledge, well, keep up the good work fellows. my webpage :: and asmr
    匿名2021-04-29 22:50
  8. I am regular visitor, how are you everybody? This piece of writing posted at this website is really nice. Here is my web blog :: gamefly there
    匿名2021-05-04 04:15
  9. Awesome article. Review my webpage: for asmr
    匿名2021-05-04 12:58
  10. Howdy! This is my first comment here so I just wanted to give a quick shout out and say I genuinely enjoy reading through your articles. Can you suggest any other blogs/websites/forums that go over the same topics? Thanks for your time! Look at my homepage asmr (bit.ly)
    匿名2021-05-07 17:18
  11. I've been surfing online more than 3 hours today, yet I never found any interesting article like yours. It's pretty worth enough for me. In my opinion, if all website owners and bloggers made good content as you did, the net will be much more useful than ever before. Also visit my blog post; asmr why
    匿名2021-05-08 11:46
  12. It's in point of fact a great and helpful piece of info. I am glad that you simply shared this useful info with us. Please stay us up to date like this. Thanks for sharing. my web-site when asmr
    匿名2021-05-09 11:59
  13. scoliosis Woah! I'm really enjoying the template/theme of this blog. It's simple, yet effective. A lot of times it's hard to get that "perfect balance" between usability and visual appearance. I must say you've done a excellent job with this. Also, the blog loads extremely fast for me on Internet explorer. Excellent Blog! scoliosis (bit.ly)
    匿名2021-05-15 18:25
  14. scoliosis, euryka.rdi.uoc.edu, Howdy! Do you know if they make any plugins to safeguard against hackers? I'm kinda paranoid about losing everything I've worked hard on. Any tips? scoliosis
    匿名2021-05-17 03:51
  15. free dating sites This is very interesting, You're a very skilled blogger. I've joined your rss feed and look forward to seeking more of your wonderful post. Also, I've shared your website in my social networks! dating sites Look into my webpage: https://6869milesoflove.tumblr.com/
    匿名2021-05-19 15:29
  16. scoliosis (bit.ly) This piece of writing is actually a fastidious one it helps new the web visitors, who are wishing for blogging. scoliosis
    匿名2021-05-19 17:09
  17. Thanks for finally talking about > 追念表姐 – 贞吉网 < Liked it! Feel free to surf to my page: asmr this
    匿名2021-05-21 21:02
  18. A person essentially assist to make seriously posts I might state. That is the first time I frequented your website page and thus far? I surprised with the analysis you made to create this dating sites actual post incredible. Wonderful process!
    匿名2021-05-26 11:57
  19. Hello everyone, it's my first visit at this web site, and post is really fruitful for me, keep up posting these articles. My web blog ... free dating sites an
    匿名2021-05-27 02:06
  20. If you are going for finest contents like me, just visit this website daily because it provides feature contents, thanks Also visit my website :: on free dating sites
    匿名2021-05-29 19:25
  21. I am really enjoying the theme/design of your web site. Do you ever run into any browser compatibility problems? A couple of my blog readers have complained about my blog not operating correctly in Explorer but looks great in Firefox. Do you have any tips to help fix this problem? My blog post - our scoliosis surgery
    匿名2021-05-31 03:07
  22. Hi there friends, how is all, and what you want to say regarding this article, in my view its actually awesome for me. Feel free to surf to my website: scoliosis surgery was
    匿名2021-05-31 15:44
  23. I enjoy looking through an article that can make people think. Also, thanks for permitting me to comment! Also visit my web page ... dating sites your
    匿名2021-05-31 19:02
  24. My partner and I stumbled over here different web page and thought I might as well check things out. I like what I see so now i'm following you. Look forward to checking out your web hosting their - http://tinyurl.com, page yet again.
    匿名2021-08-10 17:57
  25. hello there and thank you for your information – I've definitely picked up anything new from right here. I did however expertise some technical issues using this web site, as I experienced to reload the site many times previous to I could get it to load correctly. I had been wondering if your web host is OK? Not that I am complaining, but slow loading instances times will sometimes affect your placement ps4 games in - bitly.com - google and could damage your high-quality score if advertising and marketing with Adwords. Well I'm adding this RSS to my email and could look out for much more of your respective exciting content. Ensure that you update this again very soon.
    匿名2021-08-11 06:40
  26. Hello, i believe that i saw you visited my blog thus i got here to go back the desire?.I am attempting to in finding issues to improve ps4 games my, tinyurl.com, site!I guess its adequate to use a few of your concepts!!
    匿名2021-08-11 19:14
  27. I must thank you for the efforts you have put in writing this site. I'm hoping to check out the same high-grade blog posts from you in the future as well. In fact, your creative writing abilities has motivated me to get my own website now 😉 Take a look at my site; web hosting why (http://tinyurl.com/ydqedss8)
    匿名2021-08-12 09:10